Hey there. My name is Leana Hope Urwin. You may know me or you just stumbled across this. But for some reason you stayed. You’re here. Reading my story. And I’m thankful for that. In this introduction post I hope you’ll get to know me a little better, my heart and my thoughts towards this thing we call life.
From a young age, I always felt different from everyone else. Not in a lesser kind of way, but I always felt a bit more mature for my age. Even as a child my hobbies and interests were different. The things I liked to do most kids my age didn’t. Don’t get me wrong I’ve had my fair share of teenage mistakes and embarrassing moments but for the most part I tried my best to do the right thing. I've always had this mindset that I could do anything and be anything I wanted to be. Even if my reality and circumstances were completely different.
I grew up the youngest of seven children. My mom raised us all on her own and she did her very best at it. As a child, I never really could comprehend just how hard it must have been. I saw the struggles my mom faced but to me she always looked so strong. I remember being young and moving from place to place. Little apartments or little houses that had a bedroom or two. There were always so many of us but it was always so much fun. When my brother came home one day with a tattoo and my mom started crying.. And then I cried. Or the morning before my sister got married and my mom made us breakfast one last time before she left. Those are times I will never forget. Eventually, it got down to the two youngest girls. My sister Kimberly and I shared this little room in a two bedroom apartment that had the biggest playground as a backyard. We had so many smiles, belly laughs, cries, pranks and everything in between there. Those will always be some of my greatest memories with my sister.
But as life promises, we grow up. All of my siblings had left the house and I was getting ready to graduate high school. My plans to go off to college with the rest of my friends was completely obliterated and replaced with an even better plan than I could have imagined. It started with a voice in my head that simply said “Go. It’s time.” In that moment I knew those plans and dreams God had spoken to me throughout my life, were about to happen. He called me to go, to leave what was so familiar and comfortable to me, and do something that would eventually change my life forever. Only three months after leaving my home and family, I met the man I’d eventually marry.
This is where it gets good. Growing up with no dad in the picture left me really heartbroken and angry. I was constantly praying trying to understand why. I always needed people around to make me happy and feel secure. Thankfully, God knew exactly what and who I needed. He knew I needed to find true happiness in Him. And He knew I needed to leave to do that. Which led me to our home in Idaho. He also knew I would need someone who would encourage me on the way and who I could lean on. He knew I needed my husband, Jaydan Urwin. All those years feeling “different”, feeling in my heart like I was meant for more, to go places I’ve never been, to experience life in a new way- was God preparing me for the life I have now.
And I’m so thankful. Because of that, I’m able to share this story with you. And it's not even close to being over! So I hope you stick around, get encouraged through this blog and most importantly I hope you never let the disadvantages of life stop you from fulfilling your true calling. Take care, friends.